Saturday, April 03, 2004
Well hello there.
My daddy is voming home on friday and I get out of this hell hole! I can't wait!!! and after that Cammy is coming for 3 weeks to help out...I don't think it will be that bad, but she's still a little weird... anything's better than this psycho-bitch from hell...lol.
I picked up my prom dress today. It is soooo pretty! it's black w/ from the waist down it has a slit w/ white underneath it, and it has flowers all pretty around it, and I got shoes and a purse to match of course, lol. I emailed Robbi just as a friendly I'm bored email and hinted alot. I told him that I don't have a date, and that I couldn't get one even if I tried, and that guys are stupid, lol. So maybe he'll get the hint(yeah right), or maybe he'll even answer me in a timely manner....which would be a first....he's such an idiot....why do I love him so much??? I don't get it... I hope I at least dance w/ a guy there....I really want to have a good time....REALLY. I usually do have a good time, but it would make the night perfect id\f I just got to dance w/ a guy... like the night I met Robbi...that was the most perfect night...I'll never forget it...*sighs* I'm so pathetic...I really need to stop obsessing over guys...it's not cool... guys suck major booty...
My daddy is voming home on friday and I get out of this hell hole! I can't wait!!! and after that Cammy is coming for 3 weeks to help out...I don't think it will be that bad, but she's still a little weird... anything's better than this psycho-bitch from hell...lol.
I picked up my prom dress today. It is soooo pretty! it's black w/ from the waist down it has a slit w/ white underneath it, and it has flowers all pretty around it, and I got shoes and a purse to match of course, lol. I emailed Robbi just as a friendly I'm bored email and hinted alot. I told him that I don't have a date, and that I couldn't get one even if I tried, and that guys are stupid, lol. So maybe he'll get the hint(yeah right), or maybe he'll even answer me in a timely manner....which would be a first....he's such an idiot....why do I love him so much??? I don't get it... I hope I at least dance w/ a guy there....I really want to have a good time....REALLY. I usually do have a good time, but it would make the night perfect id\f I just got to dance w/ a guy... like the night I met Robbi...that was the most perfect night...I'll never forget it...*sighs* I'm so pathetic...I really need to stop obsessing over guys...it's not cool... guys suck major booty...
Wednesday, March 31, 2004
hey ppls,
I'm finally at Katie's, I have been for a couple of days, it's nice... I like eating real food...not frozen crap, and not only is it real food, but it's real puerto rican/cuban food, yummy. I hung out w/ Joey the other day... I dunno, I think he's pretty cute... He's a sweetheart too...but I think that if he does like me and if he asks me out, i'm gonna say no, cuz I don't want to go through another satellite relationhip... that was just too hard for me... I like him though... and then there's Mike...I really like him, and I think he likes me, but it's not gonna go anywhere cuz he lives so fricken far away.... I hate it...and I'm so fricken over James....he's an idiot...and immature little idiot freshman... he's just so damn cute...lol. I don't know...all guys should die and go to hell....but I'm also PMSing so that could just be the cramps talking...but yeah....I gotta go though, I'll write later. Byes
I'm finally at Katie's, I have been for a couple of days, it's nice... I like eating real food...not frozen crap, and not only is it real food, but it's real puerto rican/cuban food, yummy. I hung out w/ Joey the other day... I dunno, I think he's pretty cute... He's a sweetheart too...but I think that if he does like me and if he asks me out, i'm gonna say no, cuz I don't want to go through another satellite relationhip... that was just too hard for me... I like him though... and then there's Mike...I really like him, and I think he likes me, but it's not gonna go anywhere cuz he lives so fricken far away.... I hate it...and I'm so fricken over James....he's an idiot...and immature little idiot freshman... he's just so damn cute...lol. I don't know...all guys should die and go to hell....but I'm also PMSing so that could just be the cramps talking...but yeah....I gotta go though, I'll write later. Byes
Sunday, March 28, 2004
Well, today was boring as hell.... I did absolutely nothing except sleep and talk on the phone... She said today was going to be a day of rest....yeah, a day to do absolutely nothing.... I had a nice nap though, lol. I got to talk to Mike on the phone. He is so fricken awsome, I wish he lived here. It's not fair... All the good ones i can't have. We have alot in common and all that, and he's very down to earth... in the pic I saw of him he was pretty cute too....I hate it...he needs to move here...
Then I talked to Joey for a while....I think he's gonna end up liking me and I don't think I will... He told me that he has cerebral paulsy in his left side. He's really sweet and all that, but he's kind of annoying...he's a little wiggerish, and wiggers REALLY annoy me...He said that he's never talked that long w/ a girl on the phone and that he feels a kind of connection w/ me that he's never felt w/ another girl.....why does this always happen to me??? I always want guys to like me, but it's never guys that I want.... The guys that like me are all sweet, but I just don't want to go out w/ them....is that so bad??? I like them as friends and nothing else...I hate saying no to them when they ask me...I've only had to do it once....but still...it was hard...and I liked the kid too, I just didn't want to go out w/ him....and now he's going out w/ my friend Tina...and they're really happy, so I guess it turned out alright.... I was just so excited to talk to Mike... He's so great... I would go out w/ him in a heartbeat... why can't I have the guys that I want???? it really sux....And tomorrow I meet joey in person, and stuff....he better not like me damnit... I guess I'l write tomorrow and tell u what happened....byes
Then I talked to Joey for a while....I think he's gonna end up liking me and I don't think I will... He told me that he has cerebral paulsy in his left side. He's really sweet and all that, but he's kind of annoying...he's a little wiggerish, and wiggers REALLY annoy me...He said that he's never talked that long w/ a girl on the phone and that he feels a kind of connection w/ me that he's never felt w/ another girl.....why does this always happen to me??? I always want guys to like me, but it's never guys that I want.... The guys that like me are all sweet, but I just don't want to go out w/ them....is that so bad??? I like them as friends and nothing else...I hate saying no to them when they ask me...I've only had to do it once....but still...it was hard...and I liked the kid too, I just didn't want to go out w/ him....and now he's going out w/ my friend Tina...and they're really happy, so I guess it turned out alright.... I was just so excited to talk to Mike... He's so great... I would go out w/ him in a heartbeat... why can't I have the guys that I want???? it really sux....And tomorrow I meet joey in person, and stuff....he better not like me damnit... I guess I'l write tomorrow and tell u what happened....byes
Saturday, March 27, 2004
It's been a while since I last wrote... I just keep forgetting... I can't wait to get out of this hell hole.... I don't think that u realize....I CANNOT stand this women anymore...she NEVER STOPS TALKING!!! EVER, and I mean E-V-E-R. I wish she would just shuttup for more than 5 seconds. I can't wait to go stay at Katie's...u have no idea.... I've been trying to frensh braid my own hair and it's not working...lol... I had a bing bang girls rehearsal today....I hate it when Molly isn't there b/c I'm not actually friends with anyone other than her... I need to find a gown to wear for the preformance, and I don't want to....i don't want to look like an idiot....I look really bad in dresses.... But I guess I have no coice... I get to meet Joey on Monday....that should be interesting...I have this feeling that he's gonna like me or something, and I don't want to go out w/ him at all....I only really like 2 ppl right now(go me!), and he isn't one of them...grr...I hate this.... Robbi turned 17 on thursday and I sent him an ecard...he couldn't believe that I remembered....c'mon, it was at his b-day party that we had our first kiss...yeah right like I'm gonna forget that.... But yeah....I tol dhim about bing bang, but he has conveniently not answered my email(big surprise), so I doubt he really cares... I guess I g2g, I'll ttyl. Buh-byes. hopefully I'll remember to write....
Monday, March 08, 2004
well, today was another boring day... We had Science FCATs today and it was so unbelievably easy it's not even funny... I finished it in like 20 minutes and we had 75 to do it...it was pathetic...
I think I'm through w/ the whole James thing....he's being an ass lately....I don't like asses... I seriously need to meet some new guys... I'm tired of the ones I have now....Aaron obviously doens't like me, James is being an ass, and robbi doesn't give a crap whether anyone likes him, especially me... I am so tired of being single, u don't even know... guys suck booty... I'm so pathetic that my whole fricken life and mind revolves around guys, but what else have I got to think about...there is nothing else...my life is pathetic...
So Trent is officially gay now...yup...big surprise there....There's not too much else to say except that I hate love and feelings and pretty much everything that has to do w/ emotions... all I know is that my life would be much MUCH easier w/ out them...no thinking about guys, no loving ppl, no nothing....*sighs* if only... I'll add stuff tomorrow....I have no life...bye...
I think I'm through w/ the whole James thing....he's being an ass lately....I don't like asses... I seriously need to meet some new guys... I'm tired of the ones I have now....Aaron obviously doens't like me, James is being an ass, and robbi doesn't give a crap whether anyone likes him, especially me... I am so tired of being single, u don't even know... guys suck booty... I'm so pathetic that my whole fricken life and mind revolves around guys, but what else have I got to think about...there is nothing else...my life is pathetic...
So Trent is officially gay now...yup...big surprise there....There's not too much else to say except that I hate love and feelings and pretty much everything that has to do w/ emotions... all I know is that my life would be much MUCH easier w/ out them...no thinking about guys, no loving ppl, no nothing....*sighs* if only... I'll add stuff tomorrow....I have no life...bye...
Sunday, March 07, 2004
'ello 'ello,
Not that much happened today...I visited my parents today, and my g-ma brought my mom over to see my dad. My dad is doing better today. Brianna and Justin are in town, but I'm not gonna see them, b/c my g-ma won't drive me there.... I'm listening to the radio and talking to Allyssa on the phone.... There is absolutely nothing to do... my g-ma is cooking dinner....
Robbi still hasn't emailed me back....he's so stupid...I get to see James tomorrow!! I don't know why I like that boy so much, he's a stupid immature freshman...I think he's just too immature to handle a relationship...at least that's what I hope it is.... he's just so fricken cute, and sweet, and funny....did I mention CUTE!? I love his pretty red hair, and his beautiful grey eyes, and his...just EVERYTHING! I'm so pathetic... Why do I bother....I don't think he likes me anymore...he said that he did a couple of weeks ago...but that was then, and he's a guy and not to mention a freshy....guys suck...
Well this was another pointless entry b/c nobody knows or cares enough to read it....bye...
Not that much happened today...I visited my parents today, and my g-ma brought my mom over to see my dad. My dad is doing better today. Brianna and Justin are in town, but I'm not gonna see them, b/c my g-ma won't drive me there.... I'm listening to the radio and talking to Allyssa on the phone.... There is absolutely nothing to do... my g-ma is cooking dinner....
Robbi still hasn't emailed me back....he's so stupid...I get to see James tomorrow!! I don't know why I like that boy so much, he's a stupid immature freshman...I think he's just too immature to handle a relationship...at least that's what I hope it is.... he's just so fricken cute, and sweet, and funny....did I mention CUTE!? I love his pretty red hair, and his beautiful grey eyes, and his...just EVERYTHING! I'm so pathetic... Why do I bother....I don't think he likes me anymore...he said that he did a couple of weeks ago...but that was then, and he's a guy and not to mention a freshy....guys suck...
Well this was another pointless entry b/c nobody knows or cares enough to read it....bye...
Saturday, March 06, 2004
Hey ppl that are prolly not reading this...I bet you're wondering why my URL is "P-nutz" blog or w/e. Well, I got the nickname peanut like on the first day of freshman year from this senior guy(I miss Bryce...:(), and it just kinda stuck, ppl have been calling me that ever since. If I actually remember to write in this everyday, u ppl are going to think I am a freak, but that's cuz I am, and I enjoy it. I'm a little boy crazy, but I can't hep it, I just love guys too much... there's one especially that I love, and ul prolly hear/read alot about him.... Maybe I should tell u what happened today and stuff, or w/e...
Well, yesterday one of my good friends told me that he was bi.... But I know he's gay....I've known that he was gay for a couple of years now... and now he wants me to hook him up w/ someone b/c I know him really well and I know alot of ppl. That should be interesting
Today I went to the mall w/ Keira. That was fun. I wanted to get my cartilage pierced, but we needed papers saying that my g=ma was my legal guardian and stuff...it was retarded, but we're prolly gonna go next weekend w/ the papers.
Robbi hasn't emailed me back yet....dork... why must I love that boy so much!!! I don't know why I do, god knows he doesn't deserve it, especially from me. There's just something about him that I love and always will. I feel so bad that he doesn't think that he has any good friends and that everyone hates him and all this, b/c it's not true, they're just annoyed by him, and I don't blame them. That boy can be so annoying!!! He's selfish and a know-it-all, and he doesn't think before he speaks most of the time, but I know that he can be this sweet, cute, caring guy that loves me and cares about everyone, even if he doesn't always show it.... Ya know if he gets over the selfish thing, alot of the other stuff will go away... ok enough about him...here I am telling u all of his faults, and before that I was telling u how much I love him...it makes no sense....I hate it...
Well, I'm tired, I'm gonna go nighy-night....byes.
Well, yesterday one of my good friends told me that he was bi.... But I know he's gay....I've known that he was gay for a couple of years now... and now he wants me to hook him up w/ someone b/c I know him really well and I know alot of ppl. That should be interesting
Today I went to the mall w/ Keira. That was fun. I wanted to get my cartilage pierced, but we needed papers saying that my g=ma was my legal guardian and stuff...it was retarded, but we're prolly gonna go next weekend w/ the papers.
Robbi hasn't emailed me back yet....dork... why must I love that boy so much!!! I don't know why I do, god knows he doesn't deserve it, especially from me. There's just something about him that I love and always will. I feel so bad that he doesn't think that he has any good friends and that everyone hates him and all this, b/c it's not true, they're just annoyed by him, and I don't blame them. That boy can be so annoying!!! He's selfish and a know-it-all, and he doesn't think before he speaks most of the time, but I know that he can be this sweet, cute, caring guy that loves me and cares about everyone, even if he doesn't always show it.... Ya know if he gets over the selfish thing, alot of the other stuff will go away... ok enough about him...here I am telling u all of his faults, and before that I was telling u how much I love him...it makes no sense....I hate it...
Well, I'm tired, I'm gonna go nighy-night....byes.
